#30DaysofBrave- Day 14- Brandi

“We need to get him out right now, we’re going to be taking you to the delivery room for an emergent c section.” I couldn’t believe I was hearing these words being only 27 weeks pregnant. This was my rainbow baby as I had already had a baby at only 22 weeks in 2018. Fast forward to two hours later, Maddex was here. He was immediately rushed to the NICU and it was hours before we could see him.

Walking into the NICU for the first time is something that’s so hard to explain to those who have never experienced it; feelings of being numb and still in shock all at the same time. No mom dreams of looking at their baby for the first time while laying in an isolette hooked up to numerous monitors.

Day after day driving to and from the NICU was so overwhelming but as I sat there and watched my son be so brave, I knew I had to be too. The days were long and having to leave him there every night never got easier but I began to look forward to every moment I got to spend with him. Days started to become more “fun” every time I got to hold him and get more involved in the little things like diaper changes.

61 long days in the NICU and we were finally able to bring our boy home. It’s been about a month since having him home and the thoughts of the NICU are still hard to process sometimes, but as I watch him grow everyday I’ll remember to remind him as he grows up, “Maddex, you’re a warrior who can do all of the hard things.”